Kildeer's Weblog

Cheering Up Mom!

kildeer — Sun, 21 Aug 2011 02:18:15 +0000

Here are a few images of me working on my weekly web comic, “Cheering Up Mom!” . This photo series shows a bit of the process from start to finish of the comic “bitch” from last week. Feel free to subscribe to my weekly email updates here. (thanks to Barb Foss for the photos!)

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Harley Nightster with a touch of heart

kildeer — Thu, 21 Oct 2010 04:22:59 +0000

A study for a road-trip comic I’m making with Wm. Kuskin of CU Boulder’s Literature program. He tells a heartfelt tale of taking his daughter cross-country to see New Orleans after the hurricane. Why? He’s antsy after doing childcare alone for 3 weeks while his wife pursued her academic career in Shakespeare in London. Not much of a scandal, but quite a tale follows. More to come! I’m glad to be working in this more realistic vein. Never thought I’d do a biker story (I ride a Kymco scooter myself), but it helps me feel aligned with my comics roots—falling in love with Fantagraphic’s edge in Seattle, years ago. May it serve me well. Enjoy.

kildeer — Mon, 30 Aug 2010 19:44:22 +0000

Beyond webcomics…

kildeer — Fri, 04 Jun 2010 20:11:57 +0000

After finally finishing my MFA and thesis performance (trailer to be edited soon and posted), as a collaboration with a gifted professor of English Lit at CU Boulder, I created the art for his online course about comics. Playing with persona, the professor (pictured in page 1 below as a sillhouette) parks his motorcycle outside the GRUPPENTECH NETWORK AND ROBOTIC EDUCATION (G.E.N.R.E.) building and proceeds into the lab to be injected into the “grid” by the mad scientists of the university’s online education program. I had a blast creating this piece and have one more page to ink, but couldn’t wait to throw these online. Kuskin and I enjoyed collaborating so much, we’re about to work on a piece about his Harley trip down to New Orleans after Katrina hit. Hopefully we’ll see that soon! Enjoy!

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Super Grandparents!

kildeer — Sun, 03 Jan 2010 00:41:11 +0000

Couldn’t resist drawing this picture of my parents with their grandchildren after they dressed as superhero grandparents for halloween. (Eli’s my little boy crawling on the ground).

Dreams of sleep

kildeer — Tue, 07 Jul 2009 15:09:32 +0000

Here’s the original bristol board comic done with brush and ink about a night of sleep loss with my wife and newborn. I tried to capture the fragmented quality of the night, but really it was an exercise laying out a full size single page story. Click on the image to see it full size in Flickr.

Here’s the final with the blacks added digitally. The piece as a whole feels like it owes a lot to Will Eisner, though the style of the characters are a little more indebted to Chris Ware and Dan Clowes. Those two are also well aware of the influence of Herge and Winsor McCay on their own art and I feel the same, though I hadn’t been aware of those artists until recently. Ah comics. Such a great time.

I’ve been teching a class in making comics and this was the project I did as a demonstration. I’m really glad for the motivation to make something that’s not my thesis work right now. Though my next mini-comic will definitely be tied into my thesis. Still, it will be a nice piece to trade with the students. Glad to have the inspiration. The baby slept till 5 this morning! I can work! I got up right then and haven’t stopped since. Eli really wants to figure out the world.

I also need to upload my last animation/cartoon slide show piece I’d finished last semester. coming soon!

Mother & Child with Water Stairs

kildeer — Sun, 12 Apr 2009 19:29:12 +0000

Big breakthrough last night due to a couple of great bloggers out there. Dani Draws and Zen Textures along with the ever present bittbox who provided me with all the advice and even some of the tools to create this piece above (bittbox is giving away beautiful photoshop watercolor brushes). The drawing is really a pencil doodle I did in my sketchbook that I later inked to pass the time and scanned to see if I’d use it someday. It turned up here when I was experimenting with the textured backdrop I got from Zen Textures for free! Beautiful scans of photoshop textures that makes it look like you’ve been traveling through the outback and had to make a drawing of a dream on an old folded open cereal box left in your backpack from 1972. Then I drew in the stairs in a color layer below the line layer and texturized the color with an eraser tool texture on a really large scale to make it look as if it had been printed in 1972 as well and the ink has peeled away. All of that texture combined with the dreamy nostalgia of the mother and child sitting so peacefully on the water stairs looking toward some gentle place not too far away, but no longer nearby.

That segues nicely into making it well known that I have a two week old little boy living in my house with me and my wife now. Alas, it has been a beautiful experience sensing my heart breaking open to loving a little human animal so currently unaware of its future status aside from what we project onto him.

He is living in a state of reflexes, nerves, accidental smiles, grunts, phlegm, boobs, and milk. We love him like it hurts. It’s a vague, but pulsating sense of needing to tell him, but feeling unable to communicate it. Right now that can be blamed on his inability to understand words, but I have my suspicions that I’ll be feeling it just as deep when he’s 12. Or 18. Or 50 if I live that long. Wow. It’s coming on slow too. Which means, I don’t have any idea when it will reach full capacity. Here’s a glimpse. Some drawings to come about babies and me. Meanwhile, meet Eli Jupiter Foss.

Finding the middle by starting at the ends

kildeer — Wed, 11 Mar 2009 02:04:14 +0000

This is a series of drawings I recently did for a presentation about the extremes I’ve experienced in my life. They’re all drawn right in my sketchbook with ink and brush. Each is about 7″x10.” The stories are beneath each drawing.

When I was two, my parents found me walking on the foundation of our new house before it was built. My mother had to carefully talk me down. I’ve always imagined this image as symbolic for my life. Being willing to walk up to the ledge and look out. Strangely I’ve always been scared of heights.

This image describes a comforting ritual I have when I go swimming. I spend as much time underwater as I can. I think it’s a desire to return to the womb sometimes during my busy life. I come up long enough for a breath and then dive to the bottom over and over.

I plug my ears in the shower sometimes and close my eyes for the thunderous sound and warmth of the water to quiet my overstimulated nervous system. Also womblike.

Ever since I can remember, I’ve enjoyed sleeping while someone is vacuuming in the next room. It’s partly because it’s nice not to have to be doing chores, but also because it’s such a nice sound.

This is the opposite of calm, where I fell on my shoulder and neck during an unfortunate backscratcher attempted while skiing off a jump. I caught my tips I think.

This image describes a moment when I was trying to rewire the electric box for my kiln. Two 220 wires touched together and exploded like a gun shot. It terrified me. I took a shot of gin and carefully replaced the wires back in their sockets. I’d thought I’d turned off the main power, but I had not. This is why I draw now. Probably the closest to death I’ve come since the wires were so close to my fingers that my forefinger had smoke on it. yikes!

You Gotta Ask Your Heart

kildeer — Fri, 06 Mar 2009 16:30:54 +0000

This is a series of images, the first seven out of seventy-five that are intended to accompany a song I’ve written, not so much as a music video in comics, but more of a live performance accompanied by projected drawings. I’ll put up the video when it’s done. What I’m excited by is the desire to work with two tones of wash directly on cold press Arches watercolor paper. Again finding I miss the old methods a little, simplifying my process. Each image is only 5×7 and so the sum makes a lovely little stack of originals that I’d like to enclose in a hand made box upon finishing. I’ll also make reproductions into a book hopefully. But for now, here’s a peek at what I’ve gotten scanned. I’ll put some more up soon. I tried to scan them so the torn edges of the paper would show so as to maintain some of the analog feel of a book despite the finals being projected. I’m also thinking of shuffling through them by hand on video so it shows the tactility of the paper more while it is accompanied by the song. I’ll attach that later once I’ve made the mp3. I’m still mixing it down. The song is called, You Gotta Ask Your Heart.

Getting Home

kildeer — Sat, 31 Jan 2009 22:37:26 +0000

My most recent comic project. I’m doing what I can to develop a series of short stories during the time constraints of grad school and going to baby birthing classes. This, I hope is the first of many. Keep an eye out. This is also the first autobio comic I’ve tried, though the guy doesn’t look like me, this really happened. I was the biker and I’m not proud of my reaction. It’s a real conundrum what to do about the feeling that, as a biker, sitting at a red light feels ridiculous when there are no cars, and yet it also seems ridiculous when a driver so righteously yells at a biker as if it’s going to help. Paradox seems ripe for comics. I mean for this piece to be read slowly, and I hope the pacing helps with that. It’s like a mini parable.

Enjoy!